Notes

The best hour of the week is the one between the first cup and any obligation to be useful, with a book I am under no pressure to finish. Everything I have ever read about productivity would call this wasted. It is the only part I would defend.

An open notebook beside a cup

Wrote nothing for nine days and the world declined to notice.

Clear enough last night to be worth the cold.

New rule, provisional: nothing goes in the drafts folder until it has been written by hand once. It is slower and I lose things, and so far every piece that survived the transfer was worth transferring.

Arrived too late to see anything, which meant the town introduced itself as a smell of woodsmoke and one lit window above a shop. In the morning it was ordinary and slightly disappointing. I would keep the night version if I could choose.

A single wild plant against a plain background
Growing out of a crack in the step. Left it there.

The reading room upstairs asks you to sign a paper register — name, date, what you came to look at. I read back through three pages of it before I read anything I came for. Someone in February spent four days on parish records. I hope they found it.

Rain since Thursday. Went out anyway and had the whole path to myself, which is the trade.

Wet forest path under low light

Two hours early for a bus that turned out to be an hour late, so: three hours on a bench with a bag between my feet. I used to treat this as the cost of travel. Lately I think it might be the part I actually go for — the enforced stillness, nothing to do, nowhere else to be.

Finished it. Four months for three hundred pages, which is either very slow or exactly right, depending on whether I am talking to myself or to someone else.